Me

I WONDER:

What is wrong with me?

Everything I touch or see carries an emotion.

My hands lay idle as my mind seeks disappointment for its own sake.

Breathing has become mundane – simply a taught thing that I must surrender to.

Looking from the world’s eye – here is me – sad and torn.  Some withered ball of emotion.

In all my woes, looking for something bigger – bigger than myself and this ridiculous world.

My eyes see everything – and each piece is a memory, some small speckle in time.

I want and I need and I dream.

A sad girl with her pursed lips and cigarettes; wound into herself.  This is me.

Roses

I have two beautiful roses –

one pink and one red.

They sit in the clear blue vase –

one alive, one half-dead.

Their petals are so delicate -

beautiful and so frail.

The red is so deep –

the pink, is so pale.

They cause a flurry -

emotions in me run wild.

Memories come flooding –

making me a child.

Years and years, of love and grace -

brought me now, to this place.

I will cherish them forever -

the roses given to me yesterday.

I will forever remember your life -

in the flowers from your grave.

Her Passing

I haven’t posted in a few days, because my granny passed Saturday night.  It has been rough, but I have been coping.  I am trying to remember and celebrate her life, but cope and be as strong as I can.  I’ve dreamt of her every night since her passing.  I will miss her, but I know that she is out of her suffering and pain.  I held her hand while she passed and I got to say my goodbyes.  I know that in time the wounds will heal.  I will always remember her – her memory will be forever in my heart.

Eternal

It can’t be all taken away -

Death, you didn’t think it through.

You can’t steal love,

and memories are eternal too.

I will see her face in every crowd,

hear her voice in every song.

You thought you had it all worked out,

but Death, you couldn’t have been more wrong.

I will honor her memory,

though we must part.

You may take away her breath,

but she will live eternal in my heart.